Totally random-we went to EK to swim when I was in labor
First day home, still a litle cone headed
Kayden and I playing outside when I got home from hospital
What a difference six days make!
Last week Monday, I was told by my DR that they would not induce me until end of this week. Of course, knowing how large Kayden was and how many problems I had-- I panicked. Thank goodness I did not have to wait that long! Bryce actually broke his collarbone due to size and was stuck for a long time so I am thankful I had him when I did.
Great hospital visit; I love being in the hospital after delivery. The pace of life is so much slower and I love just being able to sit and hold him all day. I missed Kayden so much, though, and by the second night I was ready for some one on one with my first boy. AND some good food. That food was horrible!
The first night home was....rough. Bryce slept the best of all of us. We had some technical problems with how the bedroom was laid out so we had to move it around in the middle of the night. Josh then tripped over the newly positioned baby bed twice, leading to everyone waking up. We finally settled down and Kayden fell out of bed for the first time ever. Thankfully, it has gotten so much better. Knock on wood, but Bryce has been only waking up every four hours the last few nights. I am not expecting it to last, but thankful I have it for now!
I am feeling overwhelmed. When I focus on the day to day, all is well. However, when I start to think about adding balancing a business with all of this, I feel really overwhelmed. I am trying so hard to still give Kayden a lot of attention and also take time to really enjoy this newborn stage. They are small for such a short time, if I blink I am afraid I will miss it! Fitting in work just seems so much harder now, but I have mostly moms as customers so they have been really understanding.
Bryce had his first DR visit today- 9lbs, 11 oz already and is 97% for height. 95% for weight.
Well, that is it for now. Thanks for all the well wishes sent our way. I am a little slow on the e-mails right now so sorry if you have not gotten a personal response:-) I will try to post more pix later.
Avoiding e-mail, the phone, this blog, ducking if I see someone in the grocery store....all to avoid the inevitable questions.
When are you due again?
Is that baby ever going to come?
No baby, yet?
Still hanging in there?
For those of you that have never had to wait on a baby, consider yourself blessed. Answering these questions really is not a problem, it is the multitude of times in a day that I am asked to answer them. As if I am not anxious enough about having a baby and being overdue, talking about it all day long will certainly do it. So, if you call here and Josh answers the phone "No baby yet, this is Josh" and I am "unavailable"...that is why.
Tonight, Josh and Kayden were outside taking a walk with the "cozy coup". I was cleaning out my 'Mom-Ride', and Carmelo decided he had to go outside. I shuffled to the door to let him out, and no sooner had I sat down to rest for a minute than he started barking. Like little yippee dogs do.
Now normally, I would open the door and shoo him inside so he would not cause a disturbance to my neighbors. Instead, I turned around and in essence put out the white flag of surrender. "Let him bark it out", I thought. "I don't have the energy". I then caught my look in the reflection of glass. This is pretty much what I saw:
The crabbiest face of them all. I can't even recount how many times I have apologized to my mom for snapping over something trivial... I might as well walk around with a big apology sign on my forehead. Kayden is not on the receiving end, but I think he realizes some days lately I am too tired to fully discipline. He has taken that line and ran with it.
For example, today when we were eating at Wendy's and he started jumping on the booth seat. Normally, I would reprimand very quickly and make him sit down. Instead, I shrugged my shoulders and thought it might get rid of some excess energy.
I think the thing that bothers me most about all this is that, for the most part, I am a pretty sunny and energetic person. I was full steam until this past weekend when I caught a cold and I can't seem to shake it. My energy is gone, and with it has come a case of the grumpies. I am hoping kicking this illness and a good nights sleep will give me perspective.
In the meantime, if you see me and I have the above-mentioned face, please do not take it personal. I will return soon. Hopefully!