I have always been a worrier.
I know in my head it doesn't work this way, but somehow I think that if I worry about it, the situation is going to change. Through turning the situation over and over in my head, I can alter the course of events. Stop the bad from happening.
When I strip it down to the simplest form, it is about control. Or rather, my lack of it. I cannot control this, so I am going to worry about it.
Back to the para-trooper ride.
This year at the fair, as we were going around and around (and around), Kayden kept asking me if I had a tight hold on him. Every time we ascended to the top of the circular ride, I felt his hands gripping my shirt for comfort and protection. It wasn't enough to hold hands, I needed a firm arm around his waist for him to feel safe.
I didn't say this to him, but kept thinking if this thing crashes and burns, me holding on is not going to help you, kid.
Kind of like my worry.
It has been my hallow comfort for years. Something I cling to which offers no real protection from the bad stuff that can and does happen.
This past weekend, we got into a pretty significant car accident.
It was terrifying.
Most of all, unexpected.
I did not worry one minute ahead of time about getting into a car crash.
Luke 12:25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life?
My mom always tells me-- most of the stuff you worry about never even happens.
I have years and years of bad habits to break, but this is where my heart is right now. Trying hard to break the bondage of worry.
God spared us major injuries Sunday.
I praise HIM for yet again holding our family in His protective grasp.
Oh, and just a side note:
~It is so true what they say about wearing your best undergarments in case you get in a car crash. YIKES. Embarrassing!
~TRUE LOVE is helping your wife with a bed pan. Thanks, love.