Her brother was a respected OB/GYN. After graduating, he felt the Lord leading him to work in low-cost clinics to help woman that could not afford proper medical care.
The clinic was so poor, in fact, that they did not have extra staff to spare a nurse's presence in the room for physicals.
One afternoon, he cared for a woman who ultimately accused him of assaulting her. Although my mom's friend knew he was not guilty, the high powered attorneys representing this woman shed a doubt over his innocence and he was sent to prison for many years.
She went on to explain that once her brother was convicted, her life went on hold. She likened it to a race track. God and life had continually gone around the circle, yet she felt like she was in a spiritual pit-stop. It took letting go of it all in order to continue her relationship with Jesus.
As uncool as it was (I was in junior high, remember), I choked back tears hearing her pain and being touched by the honesty in which she spoke of her spiritual struggles.
Little did I know it would be 16 years later I recalled it.
I can pinpoint my pit-stop exactly. Bryce contracting RSV; that was the moment for me. Until then, having a healthy child was a given. I carried the illusion that bad stuff would happen to someone else, not me.
Sitting in that hospital room, praying over his little body after being told they were uncertain if he would live or die. The ache I felt in those moments has left me paralyzed with fear for the past few years of my life.
Looking back, it's interesting to me how long ago that was and how blessed we have been since. Everything turned out okay, and yet I remain focused on fear instead of deliverance and gratitude.
I have felt frozen.
It felt that if I let go of control, God would not carry me. I realize control is an illusion, but there were certain things that I just wasn't willing to completely surrender.
I do not want to go into exact details, but these last few weeks have been really tough for me. It has made me realize my deep need for Jesus, in spite of everything else that I have grasped so tightly these past few years. That He is the only thing that matters.
I know, it is a weighty post for a Monday evening.
But if you are willing, I would love to hear about any pit-stops you have had in life. Any verses you used to get past them?
Hold me close, Lord. Don't ever let me go.
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"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
Let's see pit stops: realizing God's plan for our family was different than my own after having two miscarriages, having a baby born waaaay too early, and not getting a teaching job that someone I respected all but guaranteed was mine. That enough? ;)
In the infamous words of a great coach and my dad, keep your chin up, Jamie!
Friend,
You know my pit-stops, :) but I'll get to work on sending you some scriptural truths that were/are especially uplifting.
I think you've read it, but Angie Smith's book is full of scripture reference. :)
Yes. I like that one, Laurie.
Wow. Quite a few pit stops. Thank you for sharing.
:-) You are the best!
James 1:13 says, "When under trial, let no one say: "I am being tried by God." For with evil things God cannot be tried nor does he himself try anyone."
So God does not bring problems on us. He is not the source of the trials we may face, but he does allow us to be tried, and he will help us, if we rely on him.
We cannot say "God will give me only what I can handle." We will often be given more than we can handle in this world - not by God. But sometimes he will allow it, and help us handle it!
We need to not focus on why God would allow such a trial, but instead focus on His help through it! Easy to say, hard to do!
Hugs,
Stacey
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