Tonight, Josh and Kayden were outside taking a walk with the "cozy coup". I was cleaning out my 'Mom-Ride', and Carmelo decided he had to go outside. I shuffled to the door to let him out, and no sooner had I sat down to rest for a minute than he started barking. Like little yippee dogs do.
Now normally, I would open the door and shoo him inside so he would not cause a disturbance to my neighbors. Instead, I turned around and in essence put out the white flag of surrender. "Let him bark it out", I thought. "I don't have the energy". I then caught my look in the reflection of glass. This is pretty much what I saw:
The crabbiest face of them all. I can't even recount how many times I have apologized to my mom for snapping over something trivial... I might as well walk around with a big apology sign on my forehead. Kayden is not on the receiving end, but I think he realizes some days lately I am too tired to fully discipline. He has taken that line and ran with it.
For example, today when we were eating at Wendy's and he started jumping on the booth seat. Normally, I would reprimand very quickly and make him sit down. Instead, I shrugged my shoulders and thought it might get rid of some excess energy.
I think the thing that bothers me most about all this is that, for the most part, I am a pretty sunny and energetic person. I was full steam until this past weekend when I caught a cold and I can't seem to shake it. My energy is gone, and with it has come a case of the grumpies. I am hoping kicking this illness and a good nights sleep will give me perspective.
In the meantime, if you see me and I have the above-mentioned face, please do not take it personal. I will return soon. Hopefully!